Sometimes, thinking about tomorrow and
the day after drives me crazy. Come to think of it, it is a strange
concept – this whole tomorrow business. We spend a lot of time
thinking about the future, working for the future and yet convincing
ourselves that we are living in the present. I don't think I've ever
been able to do a single thing in my life logically thinking of the
future – the impulses are a little too strong to worry about the
consequences... And yet, I find myself thinking about what life has
in store and flipping out. Sometimes it is quite a liberating feeling
though; you almost feel like a third person standing outside and
viewing this strange phenomenon called you.
But yes, life does take strange turns
and throws strange things at you. Some make you cry, some make you
laugh... Some are just there. Most of the times, in the larger scheme
of things it all doesn't matter. But the larger scheme is made up of
a lot of smaller schemes and every experience leaves an impact on
these small schemes, which could very well shake the larger picture.
But you'd never know where it started, where it all began. I'm
sitting here feeling a whole lot of love and pain within myself right
now, but I really don't know where it all began. I'm thinking of five
different things at the same time, and dreaming about some late night
maggi, but would I ever know where it came from? And in the same
realm of thought, as I think and obsess about myself and my life, I
can't help but feel that I don't know a thing. None of us really do.
We pretend, we wear cloaks, we make things make a difference, we
smile, we talk, we love, we mess things up, and then we do things to
fix it, or maybe we don't. We talk about ourselves, who we are, what
we value, what we miss, what we love... But do we have any idea at
all? Can you stop for a second and tell me who you really are? What
makes you tick? Or are we all just pawns at the end of the day, part
of a game where we have no clue about what is going on?
You know, I read "Or are we all just PRAWNS at the end of the day..."
ReplyDeleteNow all I can think about are fried prawns... damn it!
Haha... Why am I not surprised?!
ReplyDeleteWell, at least you know where that came from :-P
This somewhere borders around the 'Matrix' theory! Ever heard or followed it?
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